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Okay.seriously..life is pretty boring without jase..i dunno if that’s gd or bad..coz that means that i do need him to sustain my life..lol..anyways im happy he’s doing fine in camp exept for the fact that i feel like shit coz he feels like shit everytime he has to book in again..haiz! before he enlisted i actually thought i could catch up with “me” time..but im past that..haha..and i miss him being arnd..*sobz*Lol! Well, other than that, things have been kinda alrightey..cant wait to start my new job! I also got news that a certain relative or relative to be of mine..is being a complete assholeby trying to pry & change family matters. what i really think is..they should STOP doing things like this..coz in the first place, you’re not even part of the bloody family yet..i think they seem to have forgotten that fact..oh well, as complicated as my family can get..they should just mind their own business instead of making things worse! tsk tsk..some people arh! I miss GRACIE!!! ahahahhaha…well she’s like super busy now..deepavali and sch and family stuff..haiz..gotta wait..gotta wait..gotta wait…lol..well till more stuff to rant abt..tc:)

today..not my day..

oh well..today’s just not my day..seriously.afer work, i went to orchard to get a bag for myself..thought i’d just indulge in some me time..haha..but anyways…i got stoped by some lady outside takashimaya..and asked to do a health survey..it was so irritating coz the promised 10 mins turned to about 30 mins..it was so not funny..and then i went to wisma atria..and got stopped again! by some cosmetic gal..and yet again the promised 10 mins turned out to be about 40 mins..WITH me spending about nearly 100 bucks.ok its mineral makeup and she did give me a gd discount and i liked the products..but seriously! this is why i need Jase with me so he can save me from all this..and talk me outta it..lol..haiz..i hope jase’s knee gets ok. well, i really am counting down one month from now..so tt i’ll be rid of my old job and start my new job! yay! lol..

too much to do…

omg..the past few weeks have been crazy..in all that I managed to fit in dinner with the gals..which was great coz we managed to celebrate the ever-busy gracie’s bdae…hahaha! It was fun..something i havent had in a while..lol..so this new job is also giving me the jitters..will i fit in? will i be welcomed? will i catch up? the teaching methods are quite diff? aahhh too many thoughts..mind’s crammped with all that..! Jase is in army now..I somehow thought id be able to catch up with “me” time..but it turned out diff! aahah..i feel damn bored! lol…im so used to doing most things with him..he fetches me from work..we have lunch tog..shop tog..yadayada…now he’s not here..lol..i hope he’s coping ok..oh well! Hopefullyeverything spans out okay…

happyness

Last sat was awesome!!! hahaha..it was the most unexpectedly beautiful day for me of all time…*laughs* it was our 1 year anniversary dinner and Jase took me to Foster’s at Holland Village.. when we went there..i informed the waiter that we had a reservation under Jason’s name, a table for 2.. so he led us outside.. and when he showed us our seats…i was shocked! It was a corner seat..bench style actually.. with cushions all over.. a glass lamp..tealights in a floater…aaahhh…the food was great..the music was even better..haha..and of course the company!! aaahhh…im blessed! And to think he arranged all that… hahahaha…i seriously did not expect any of this..! the week’s been pretty great…except i got an interview tomorrow actually…haiz..and i’m all nerves and scattered thoughts…aaaahhhhh….hmmm…i hope it goes well..coz i wanna get that job so badly…well well..i do hope for the best! And of course there’s this bittersweet feeling raging inside me that’s getting me a lil crazy… jase’s enlistment date is in 3 weeks… haiz….

my own

oh well..i know im a bad blogger..haha…i just don’t seem to have the time at all! *sighs* Anyway..i just returned from Penang..a really really long bus ride and way too much indian food…eeewwww…I’m in need of DETOX!!! *laughs* well, i do have a solution..gym & green tea.. hahahah… well well…im looking forward to my genting trip next week..a break from everything that’s been driving me mad and crazy. Of course this involves my secret too..heeeheee! i need to get back to my tailoring and planning..i realise that i somehow find it so bloody maddening when i dont plan my days, my life, my month..anything at all. I hope i will be able to plan most of the stuff i have in mind..my mind’s kinda racing these days..too much to think about and too many things happening at once. I feel like i need a break!!

i hope…

All i know is that i have a guy who loves me so much and i don’t need anything else..

birthdays birthdays…

aahhh…its June so fast!! Time really really flies so damn fast after you hit 21…lol! Anyways, its been a fabulous month so far. Im thinking of working elsewhere and also im so glad that im gg for a trip in August! Yay! My mum will be going to Canada and Amsterdam and I’ll be gg away during her hols… i do hope my Dad and brother can cope..hehehe…they’ll have to survive on bought food till i’m back..hahaha..since none of them can cook..Lol!! Anyways, with jason’s birthday over on the 10th, and mine’s on the 23rd..tt leaves a huge hole in my wallet..hahaha..hmmm…i really hope this feeling and all these smiles sustain!

 

ps: Gracie…pls help! how do u convince someone to stop pugai pudikiran??? lol

planning ahead

Aahh..its June already..time flies so damn fast!! *laughs* its been a very tiring month..juggling dance practice, work, classes at night and family and my other half all within 24 hrs is madness!!! ive been putting in 18 hr days everyday…and its soooo damn draining! i feel like a dead worm everyday when i go to bed. But well, i am happy albeit tired. My mum and i had  convo today about how fast time flies coz i realised that its already the middle of the yr..in a matter of 4 months, i’ll be preparing for christmas!! hahahaha…it really is crazy…oh well, im turning 22 in a couple of weeks.. im kinda torn..lol..happy that im growing up..sad coz im left only with memories! Hahaha..but great, lovely,wonderful memories!

elf and peanut zoological adventures!

*Laughs*…OMG…i seriously felt like i was 10 again and i was going to the zoo for the first time..hahaha…and jase wasnt any better..i have not seen him so awake in the morning ever before..lol..so a bus journey to AMK and half an hour of finding for the bus later, we were on the way to the zoo..lol! All prepped with camera, water,tissues,hat,fan and cash, (mind u the bloody entrance fee isnt cheap)..we started our little adventure. Hahaha…it was fun to just wind back and relax..see nature at its best..although it rained and we had to seek shelter at the pavillion..it was the best “date” we’ve had in a while. Seeing the monkeys, apes and gibons were the funniest…all of course while jase was trying to imitate sounds and actions of the gibon..which was seriously damn funny…lol..it was a mating call..and he said he’d try it on me sometime..*laughs* Idiot! Anyways…it was around 1pm plus when we left coz we were so damn hungry..we settled for pizza from pizzafari and after that…took a very long bus back to AMK…oh which we both slept..in our most unglam states ever..jase had his mouth open at some angle..hahaha…and then we headed for the rest of the day in our own ways…lol..I liked it…ALOT!! lol..

back on track

I can’t really describe how grateful i am that this phase is over and i am able to proceed on to where i left off…without being able to share it with anyone, without having anyone except jase there….it forced me to be a brave girl. Honestly i dont feel much like a girl now…i feel more of a woman now than ever…just coz i managed to go through that and come out ok..! Yay!! Well thoughts about it do cross my mind but i cannot do much but chanel my thoughts in the practical direction..but what has happened will remain as that always and i cannot forget it or name it anyother way…

Note to Jase: Hey hon…here goes…you told me we’ll be alright and i’ll come out fine..and i did. Thank you for every second you were next to me..refusing to go anywhere else..and thank you for having so much confidence in us! I couldnt ask for more…and you were right…we’re alright..!